Friday, June 6th, 2008
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8:22 pm
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I'm in a weird state right now. I feel like all of my real friends live in a different country. This is really sad. I want to go back to Ireland. I'm tired of the US and feeling friendless. I can't wait for New Year's because that's when I'm visiting Colleenrose and Catriona and Aisling and going to London and forgetting about NJ and all these shady people. I will miss Matt and the Sharpe's and that's IT.
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Sunday, July 15th, 2007
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11:45 pm - cold feet?
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The other day my mom's friend sent her an Irish newspaper that happened to have an article about the festival we're going to. My picture was there with along with two other girls from New York and Philadelphia. There was a short article about what great Irish stepdancers they were and how they go to Ireland every summer and compete etc, etc. All it said about me was that I was an actress/student. They made up something about me having marched in parades in NY/Philly. This makes me really nervous because 1. I wasn't sure there would be two other American girls, I figured there might be another one but yeah. and 2. I'm scared that all these girls are going to have so much more to offer than I will. Sure I have red hair and freckles but I'm feeling very unIrish now after having read that article. I don't have any dancing background, or super Irish connections like these dancing schools and whatnot. I've never been to Ireland and when I get there I will be staying with girls I don't know at all and for some reason I have this feeling that the Irish girls would be more friendly than the American girls. I could be wrong, but it's just a feeling I have. When I was in England most people seemed a little snobby, especially girls around my age- so I'm hoping the Irish girls I meet will be a lot different. As the day I leave gets closer I get more and more nervous that I won't make any friends or that they will be catty or I will be uncomfortable the whole time.
If anyone has a suggestion of a poem/monologue I could use some ideas! I doubt anyone reads this anyways haha
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Wednesday, January 3rd, 2007
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4:58 pm
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So I'm going to Ireland in July/August. I'm flying out there by myself and then my family is meeting me, and hopefully Rebecca can meet me at some point. I might just stay there and never come back. I really wish I could go back to London while I'm over there but it's not looking so good right now. Honestly I can't WAIT to get the hell out of here(never thought I'd say that really,hah.)
We're flying into Dublin then heading up to Dungloe,Donegal which is the county that my grandmother's family is from. I'm in this festival there haha it's called Mary of Dungloe. ANYWAYS this is the cottage my parents are staying in...
I need to crackin on my photo project.
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Tuesday, December 26th, 2006
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2:23 am - christmas
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christmas for me consisted of family, booze, church, more family, more booze and some new shoes. my liittle cousin puked on the turkey that was basted with budweiser, and i laughed so hard i cried(really.) my grandma thought christmas was 2 days ago(dementia) so that made it an interesting day aswell. iim drunk. i gt spanked in the 80s game. i love life except for that im a retard when it comes to friends andboys sometimes. OH WELL. fuck it i dont need lame confusig people anyways right. i want it byaaadbut i dont ne eedd itt damnitt!! new yeats resolution is to take it eaaaaaaaaaaaaaaasy and pay off my debt (yeah right) i have court and bills and i need to relieve some stresss freal. its too hard to type im tryin though. goodnight ,# ps i got a sweet digital camfra!!!!!!!!!operation dont give a fuck is back in actionnn
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Monday, December 18th, 2006
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2:59 pm - it's been awhile
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Friday, December 30th, 2005
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5:51 pm
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even though sometimes it makes me sad...i'll just chalk it up to them realizing what i did a million years ago.
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Wednesday, December 7th, 2005
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10:20 am
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TEN FIRSTS
-First Best Friend: caitlyn
-First Screen Name: hlp_im_lost <-- mall metal haha
-First Pet: goldie the goldfish
-First Piercing: ears when i was 13
-First Crush: either brian, joey or JTT haha
-First CD: mariah carey
-First Car: 1988 buick skylark
-First Kiss: a boy named patrick
-First Stuffed Animal: this really cool bear i still have in my closet at home heh
First Trip: "down the shore" or cape cod
NINE LASTS
-Last Alchoholic Beverage: vodka uhgs ew
-Last Car ride: jeez...sunday with my dad back to school
-Last Movie Seen: i watched spanglish again i love it
-Last Phone Call: kristine saying to get my ass downstairs
-Last Cd Played: 50 cent
-Last Bubble bath: christ, no idea
-Last time you Cried: first time i watched spanglis probabely haha
-Last time you laughed: 5 seconds ago
-Last time you fell: dont remember
EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS
-Have you ever dated one of your best friends: jeff is my bestfriend AWWWWW
-Have you ever been arrested: nope
-Have you ever been on tv: hmmm CNN when i was a baby
-Have you ever kissed someone, and then regreted it? kinda for a week but its cool now haha
-Have you ever purposefully teased? i guess..what girl hasn't
-Have you ever dated a guy to make another guy jealous? no
-Have you ever cried to get out of trouble? i definately would
-Have you ever faked being sick? every day in middle school
SEVEN THINGS YOU ARE WEARING:
1. blue pajama pants thingys
2. gray sweatshirt
3. white shirt
4. underwear
5. slippers
6. thats
7. its
SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY
1. went to speech class
2. had lunch with michelle
3. went to a meeting thing
4. started making sxe bracelet for chris
5. ate soup
6. bullshat with gary, elmo and sarah
FIVE FAVORITE THINGS/PEOPLE (IN NO SPECIFIC ORDER)
1. my family especially tommy
2. all my friends
3. jeffrey
4. maps
5. jeff's bed
FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ANYTHING TO
1. jeff
2. rebecca
3. marc
4. michelle
THREE CHOICES
1. Hot or cold: hot unless i'm trying to sleep
2. Black or white: black
3. Chocolate or Vanilla: both a the same timee
TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. win an oscar
2. procreate
ONE THING YOU REGRET
1. maybe being a chump...but my life is pretty damn good so i don't regret much of anything.
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Thursday, October 27th, 2005
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12:48 am
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ooohhhhhhh the tangled webs we weave. and the idiots like me who are never satisfied, even when it feels like everything is straightened out. I want to wipe certain things from my mind, but the internet and things of the like make it impossible. I should just post pictures of me and my friends drunk on this thing instead of attempting to express my "feelings." I am a fag.
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Tuesday, September 27th, 2005
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12:27 pm - here goes a cryptic/indirect livejournal rant.
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maybe I just worry myself sick for nothing. I guess things just work themselves out and that's all there is to it. There is no way I can do this again, but I know if the oppurtunity presents itself I'll just hand out more and more chances like I have always done. I have really good days until one little thing comes up and I let it ruin my otherwise good mood. Fuck it. I mean it this time. I love how this whole bitch rant relates to more than one thing in my life.
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Monday, September 26th, 2005
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5:11 pm - action packed!
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College is great. I'm so glad me and my roommate get along so well. This week we went to too many parties...too much drinking combined with smoking and other things. It's ok because it was a great time and hopefully sometime in the near future I'll get the sleep I need.
This weekend we rode tripped! I wish I had pictures but I either forgot my camera or look like a drunken mess. So I'll spare whoever reads this. Anyways, Saturday night Michelle and I drove down to LBI to see our friend Cappy's new house. He got a keg for the occassion haha. A bunch of our friends from school were there and it was fun but we decided to come back to Montclair instead of staying over...because we were going to see the WHITE STRIPES and the Shins. I had been waiting like,4 years to see the white stripes and it was perfect seeing them on coney island, excpet it was freezing but we toughed it out. The shins were good too...but I wish everyone played longer. Right now I should be finishing my essay for my writing class. It's supposed to be about "coming of age." Whatever. I'm going to eat some gross food, college buffet style instead : )
I'm coming home this weekend because I have a few things to take care of haha. Also, I miss Rebecca, Jeff and MattyQ.
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Wednesday, September 7th, 2005
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2:02 pm - college is pretty sweet.
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Friday, August 19th, 2005
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2:50 pm - update on my smoke free life.
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so I quit smoking, I guess. I haven't had a cigarette since monday, it is now friday.
approx. money saved: $15.50
It's not so bad, of course there are lots of times where I'd like to have a cigggg but whatevs. My emotional attachment is dwindling slowly, how sad. I actually feel like I have more energy, but I have less sleep. I've been having dreams involving cigarettes, I'm guessing that's normal. At work I got a few headaches cus I'm used to cigarette breaks...I'm dreading today when the weekend staff comes and I can't take breaks with Akila :/ The other night at Golden Bell the owner almsot instinctively sat us in the smoking section, when I told him no more smoking for me he said "good for you honey." Anyways, I'm trying real hard not to be a scumbag, we'll see how this goes, hopefully I won't fold once I'm at school where EVERYONE smokes, including my roommate, gawd.
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Sunday, August 14th, 2005
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3:08 pm
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for most of the summer I've been so excited to go to college, now I kind of wish I had more time. Basically I thought leaving Freehold and this area would get me away from whatever problems are here but I guess me thinking that was pretty stupid. I don't know whether I'm making a really good decision or messing up everything. I hate it. when in a shitty mood, go turn to livejournal, hah.
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Saturday, August 13th, 2005
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11:48 am
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And it's okay
If you had to go away
Oh, just remember the telephones
Well, they're working in both ways
But if I never, ever hear it ring
If nothing else
I'll think the bells inside have finally found you someone else
And that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang
I can't help liking this song.
I can't believe I keep using livejournal.
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Friday, August 5th, 2005
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1:12 am
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Wednesday, August 3rd, 2005
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3:38 pm
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Saturday, July 16th, 2005
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3:21 pm
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Monday, August 30th, 2004
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8:06 pm
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Sunday, August 15th, 2004
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5:46 pm
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To be honest, I've been thinking lately... and I TRULEY BELIVE Jeff, Mike, and Chris are THE hottest boys.... correction.... HUMANS alive. I would fuck all three of them at the same time any day of the week.
YES : )
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Saturday, July 17th, 2004
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1:43 pm - most of these were taken by Jeff on my camera...
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